Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Another point for Mito awareness - ABC.com!

Well my friend Rachelle helped Mito score yet another point on the awareness scoreboard!

Please share this with your personal network.

ABCnews.com posted this article this morning on the "Health" tab.
http://abcnews.go.com/Health/Wellness/texas-boy-battles-rare-leighs-disease/story?id=17375005



Will Martin looks like a healthy 3-year-old, but his bright blue eyes and cheeky smile mask a deadly disease that's powering down his body one cell at a time.

Will has Leigh's disease, a genetic disorder that affects one in 40,000 newborns. And although his case is mild, he's unlikely to live past his seventh birthday.

"That's a pretty hard thing to grasp," said Will's mom, Lori Martin, recalling the devastating diagnosis that came just over a year ago. "We left that appointment pretty shell shocked, went home and just cried."

Leigh's disease disrupts the mitochondria, the cellular power plants that turn food into fuel. As the plants fail, the cells die. And slowly but surely the whole body shuts down.

While scientists see a glimmer of hope in an experimental drug, the current treatment for Leigh's disease is little more than a cocktail of vitamins and supplements.

"There's nothing you can do about it," said Lori Martin, who lives with Will and her husband Neil in Houston. "That's the second gut punch. You want your doctor to have all these magic answers but it doesn't really happen that way."

The disease has already attacked the energy-guzzling cells of Will's developing brain. A recent MRI scan showed four dark swaths of dying nerves in his cerebellum, which controls balance and coordination.
"He can't jump, run, hop or skip, but he gets around," said Lori Martin, adding that leg braces help guard against ankle sprains. "He thinks his fast walking is running. He's really doing quite well for having this diagnosis."

But Will's mitochondria barely keep up with his day-to-day energy demands -- and that's assuming he's healthy.

"One illness puts us in the hospital, and we may never leave," said his self-professed "helicopter mom," always hovering nearby with hand sanitizer in tow. "We try to strike a balance of letting Will be a 3-year-old boy and doing everything we can to keep him from getting sick."

For the doting mother, Will's diagnosis is especially hard to swallow. He inherited the gene defect from her through her mitochondrial DNA. That means she, too may develop symptoms of the disease.

"I'm so focused on Will and his health that that's on the backburner," she said, adding that her mother and two sisters were all found to carry the genetic defect, too. "It also means it's highly likely that any other child we biologically produce together would have Leigh's."

Pediatric neurologist Dr. May Kay Koenig, who treats Will, said Leigh's disease is the hardest diagnosis to deliver.

"People expect their children to be healthy, and to receive a diagnosis like Will's parents did is terrible in the least," said Koenig, director of the Mitochondrial Clinic at the University of Texas, Houston. "But then on top of that to have someone say there's no safe way to reproduce, to have a child of your own, is devastating."

Scientists are searching for a way around that. One possibility is to swap out the mutant mitochondrial DNA with DNA from a donor during in vitro fertilization -- a technique called mitochondrial replacement therapy, which would essentially give one baby three parents.

"It would give parents the family they deserve even though genetics dealt them an ugly hand," said Koenig. "It would be an incredible gift."

But beyond the technical challenges, mitochondrial replacement raises ethical questions about designer babies that could take years to address.

"It's not in my timeline," said Lori Martin, who dreams of giving her son a brother or sister. "But the fact that other women might have that opportunity, I just think that's an incredibly meaningful gift."
Scientists are also working on a treatment that could help keep Will's mitochondria working indefinitely. In a small clinical trial, the experimental drug EPI-743 safely reversed some signs of Leigh's disease -- an exciting result that prompted orphan drug designation from the U.S. Food and Drug Administration. That means kids like Will can take the drug while further studies are carried out.
 
"We're pleased by the results for sure," said Dr. Guy Miller, chairman and CEO of Edison Pharmaceuticals, adding that a larger phase 2 trial of EPI-743 is set to start any day. "Our fingers are crossed."
 
Will has been taking EPI-743 for over a year, and his mom thinks it's helping. He has fewer falls, better bowel movements and has started to talk in sentences.

"We get hugs. We get to hear him say, 'I love you.' Some families don't get that," she said. "We feel like we're one of the luckiest unlucky families."

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Speechless & Humbled

I woke up next to the most wonderful baby boy in the whole world this morning. I watched him wake up, stretching, fluttering his eyes, a little cough, a red cheek wet from drool.

He has no idea what he did yesterday. He made all our family, friends and even many strangers take action to learn about mitochondrial disease.

I am just so deeply humbled right now I can't even begin to explain it. My heart is so heavy so many days, but I woke up feeling like we had made a difference.

We're watching the ever dreaded Barney right now, Will is trying to sing along. I am sitting here looking at the incredible things that happened yesterday.....

The story was posted about 7:45 a.m. CST on Friday morning on CNN.com "health tab" in the general list. By about noon the story had jumped to the lead health story and made it to the CNN home page. Mito was the top trending health article on CNN yesterday. It even beat "Lady Gaga Smokes Pot" story for a long time! It remains the top "health" tab story this morning.

So what good came from this? Things I know for sure:
1. Thousands of people who never knew this disease even existed now know.
2. UMDF received a call from a woman on a mission to help her child and saw the article.
3. UMDF also received a call from someone who wants to run the Chicago marathon to raise money for UMDF.
4. I received two emails from parents on a similar journey and are searching for a diagnosis, but because so many (doctors included) don't know about Mitochondrial disease they don't know what to offer.
5. We are incredibly lucky - mostly that we live in a place that offers extraordinary access to care. Without Dr. Koenig and her entire team at the UT Mitochondrial Center of Excellence we would be lost.

And last, I am deeply humbled. The efforts our family, friends and strangers have taken in the past 24 hours leaves me without words. Please know how deeply we appreciate the posts, forwards, special photography discounts (Sara Catherine!) and the outpouring of support.

I have often wondered why Will. Why us? I continue to wonder that, but the past 24 hours have opened my eyes. I would of course prefer to be blind to all of this world, but we're not. So, let's take action. It's this kind of awareness that I truly believe will help Will and all our mito friends. Awareness = Education = Research = Funding = Treatment = Cure.

Of the 250+ comments on the CNN.com article, there are some really mean ones, "wacky" ones, misinformed ones, but the vast majority are so heartwarming and meaningful to us. Thanks to all those who posted the nice ones and for our "defenders" - pretty sure an STD didn't cause this wretched disease as some one commented... LOL all you can do is laugh sometimes.

So where do we go from here? All this great awareness... knowledge... compassion... I'm asking you to try and pick one day a week to keep spreading awareness.

YOU are making a difference in our world and in so many others. Thank you, a million times over. I'll make an awkward request, if you have some spare change, even five dollars would you please consider giving to UMDF? They fund research and grant programs to help all those with mito, including kids like Will. It's why groups like Edison / EPI-743 are starting to come together.

I want to leave with one special thank you to a very special person. Rachelle Khalaf. She is the reason why this whole thing came together. Her family has its own special circumstances and she went out of her way to make this possible. She continues to amaze me in all that she does. People have said I'm strong, but Rachelle might just be the strongest woman I know. Thank you.




Friday, September 21, 2012

A Small Step for Mito Awareness - CNN.com

Ok, I actually think this is a HUGE step for Mito awareness...

My friend Rachelle worked up the most amazing gift I've ever gotten - an opportunity to post about Mito on cnn.com. Well, today the story posted! Please pass it on to others. I just want more people to know about the disease and it's devastating effects.

Happy almost end of Mito Awareness Week! I hope you are able to make every day a Mito Awareness Day!

http://www.cnn.com/2012/09/21/health/mitochondrial-disease-martin-family/index.html?hpt=he_c2

(If you want to share this, please be sure to include the link back to CNN.com)

Please note the Facebook chat on CNNHealth today at noon ET or 11 a.m. CST. I hope to see you there.

Editor's note: Join CNN Health for a live Facebook chat about chronic disease at noon ET Friday, September 19, at Facebook.com/CNNHealth
(CNN) -- On July 5, 2011, my husband and I were told that our 2-year-old son has an invisible killer living inside his body.

Just a few short years ago, I was happily pregnant. Now, suddenly: Why? What? When? All these questions came with so few answers about a disease that few know about or understand.
That invisible killer is called mitochondrial disease. Our son's specific mutation is called Leigh's Disease.
We're one of the lucky ones. It took us only a year to get a diagnosis -- a year filled with anesthesia, a CAT scan, a muscle biopsy, a lumbar puncture, an MRI, an echocardiogram, an EKG, specialists and so on. Most families spend years attempting to find a diagnosis because of the complexities of DNA sequencing.
This silent killer is attacking our nation's children at an appalling rate. According to the United Mitochondrial Disease Foundation, every 30 minutes a child is born who will develop a mitochondrial disease by age 10.
As a first-time mom, I had no idea that I should have been scared of mitochondria. All I knew was some fuzzy science from high school biology about mitochondria being the powerhouse cells of our body.
Mitochondria are responsible for creating more than 90% of the energy needed by the body to sustain life and support growth. When they fail, less and less energy is generated within the cell. Cell injury and even cell death follow.
If this process is repeated throughout the body, whole systems begin to fail, and that person's life is severely compromised. The disease primarily affects children, but adult onset is becoming more common.
We were told that diseases of the mitochondria appear to primarily damage cells of the brain, heart, liver, skeletal muscles, kidney and the endocrine and respiratory systems. (Excuse me, but what's left?)
Symptoms may include loss of motor control, muscle weakness and pain, gastrointestinal disorders and swallowing difficulties, poor growth, cardiac disease, liver disease, diabetes, respiratory complications, seizures, visual or hearing problems, lactic acidosis, developmental delays and susceptibility to infection.
Mitochondrial disease is similar to cancer in the way it presents itself -- it can manifest in many forms.
Our son currently presents classic Leigh's symptoms: He has four brain lesions near the deep cerebellum. As his body is attacked with viral infections, fever or even as he gets overheated, he is at risk for additional brain damage that ultimately will result in system failures.
My husband and I were told on July 5, 2011, that our son will die an early death. There are no treatments; there is no cure. We left the doctor's office with instructions to start the "mito cocktail" of supplements, continue with therapy and keep him from getting sick.
We also left the doctor's office with a huge, gaping hole in our hearts. Within a matter of seconds, this huge piece was ripped out and we still haven't quite figured out how to put it back together. Our hearts are bigger now -- we can accept more and give more -- but I don't think the hole will ever mend.
It's National Mitochondrial Disease Awareness week. For us, every day we're deeply aware -- our son is lucky.
Our doctor says he has a mild case of what will one day kill him. We get to hear him say, "I love you" and watch him laugh with friends. So many other "mito" kids can't even roll over, swallow their food or see their favorite "Veggie Tales" character on TV.
There are a lot of days I don't feel so lucky. But then this tow-headed goofball comes barreling at me wanting to give me a bear hug (complete with sound effects) and it snaps me out of my sadness.
My son is my hero. He pushes us to keep going. He is the one enduring endless blood draws, hospital stays and experimental drugs.
There is no cure, but there is hope. Recently, Edison Pharmaceuticals received approval for the drug EPI-743. We're one of 128 people in the world who somehow managed to get a spot in the program.
Essentially, the drug is supposed to help Will's mitochondria function better, giving him increased energy and a chance at a better quality of life.
I often find myself feeling guilty that we're on it when there are so many others who should be. Likely, by the time the Food and Drug Administration approves it, many of these children will perish. It's not a cure, but it is a sign of hope.
You might be wondering how you can help. The first thing I would suggest is to get informed. Organizations like the United Mitochondrial Disease Foundation or websites like Mitoaction.org are good starting places.
Second, get involved. Find your local UMDF chapter and join one of the Energy for Life walks.
And lastly, you probably know someone whose child suffers from a silent or chronic disease -- autism, diabetes, multiple sclerosis, mitochondrial disease or cancer. We all just want to be "normal." A hug, a kind note of support or just a friendly smile at the grocery store goes a long way.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Support - Mito Awareness Week

Last night we headed to California Pizza Kitchen for dinner, for what I thought was going to be a smallish group. Boy was I wrong.
Our group seemingly took over a portion of the dining room. I was amazed and humbled that people drove quite a long distance just to come support Will and Mito awareness.
I forgot my camera (!) but my mom brought hers; I will post some pictures later, but for now I just wanted to say thank you to:
The Abbotts, The Mitchell's, The Zobac's, The Kotzubue's, The Brod's, The Peterson's, The Vinklarek's, The Wooten's, Ms. Monica & Gabriel, Ms. Janet, Ms. Maria, Ms. Milly and of course, my sisters and parents. More than 30 people!
I know that many others were there in spirit with us and that some are going to CPK around Texas - shout out Piesker family in Dallas - and that others are going throughout the week in Houston - shout out Beth William's family and Jennifer Moore's family! (Don't be offended if I missed you, these are people who posted on FB or blog that they have gone/are going - if you go, post a comment :-) !)
Lisa made some Mito cookies for the occasion - nutter butters and lady fingers with green icing "mito" on top.

I was also so happy to see Elizabeth Baker and her family tonight. They just found out not a week ago that their son was diagnosed with Leigh's as well. I know this might sound silly, but I was so incredibly proud of her. I think back to when we found out and I'm pretty sure I was still hiding under the covers recovering from a nervous breakdown.
I really don't know what I would have done without all the amazing support we receive from our family, friends and even strangers. Just knowing they are there and that I could call them anytime is an amazing feeling. Thank you for letting us fall apart and helping put us back together.
And now, some Leigh's-specific Mito facts:
Leigh's disease is an inherited lethal, progressive, predominately pediatric, neuromuscular disorder, for which there are no approved treatments or cure.
A child with Leigh's often appears normal at birth but typically begins displaying symptoms within a few months to 2 years of age.  Initial symptoms can include the loss of basic skills such as sucking, head control, walking and talking.                                                                                                                    
Understanding Mitochondrial Disease has the potential to transform medicine and improve the diagnosis and treatment for a range of diseases that affect millions of people.
Mitochondrial dysfunction is implicated in many more common illnesses like Alzheimer's, Parkinson's disease, diabetes, hypertension, osteoporosis, some cancers, and the aging process.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Hope - Mito Week

Happy Mito Awareness Week everyone. It's Tuesday, day 3. Only 4 official days remain. We'll be at the California Pizza Kitchen on San Felipe Wed. night at 6 p.m. - don't forget to print your flyer!
 
 
 
Yesterday, (Monday) I was overwhelmed with support. So many facebook friends have gone above and beyond. They have dedicated their cover page to Will and Mito awareness. Our friend Sara, or "Ms Big Sara" as Will calls her, created a cover photo for us to use to spread awareness. (She's not big, just tall, but she got the nickname in high school, when she was still not big, just tall).
 
 

Photo: If you want a profile pic instead of a cover photo for Mito Week...
How cute is that?
 
 
Then, I got this email from our friend Sheila as she was preparing her own outreach efforts in San Antonio, it put me over the edge...
 
"My plan for this email was to put a lot of information and links about Mitochondrial Disease, but then something happened on Sunday that made me change my mind and so I have decided to share something else instead.  I have a 4 year old daughter, Abby.  She knows Will and knows that he has a "sick" inside his body.  Every night she says a prayer especially for Will asking God to make Will's "sick" go away.  On Sunday I asked Abby if she wanted to color some of the Mito coloring pages I had printed from the UMDF website so that I could put them on my office door for Mito Awareness Week.  She asked my why I wanted to do that and so I told her that we want to tell a lot of people about Will this week so that we can all help the doctors make Will's "sick" better.  Then she asked me "how did Will get sick?"  Which we have talked about before but I explained to her again that the sick was just there in his body already when he was born and sometimes that right now the doctors don't know how to make it go away and that's why she saves money in her special Will piggy bank and why we need to tell a a lot of people so we can help the doctors. 
 
Well...she started colored the pictures, and we went on with our day.  When nap time came we went up to her room and got her settled and then she just looked at me and started crying.  Now this is nothing new for her...she is in the cry about anything and everything phase of being 4, I figured one of her nightlights was not on or something as equally as devastating
 
But when I asked her why she was crying she just put her head down and said she was crying because she was just really worried about Will and that she didn't want him to be sick anymore.  Now this just floored me...she was seriously crying...it was all I could do to keep from crying myself.  It was like she all of the sudden understood what we have been talking about with Will since last year, and she understood the seriousness and sadness of Will's situation.  Watching a 4 year old come to terms with this information was crazy and disturbing and impressive all at once.  
 
Later as I was thinking about what to say in this email this year I thought about Abby and how much she wants Will to be better and I thought if I can share this with you than maybe that would make more of an impact than the clinical info about Mito.  During this week I hope that you will just talk to anyone and everyone who will listen about Mito and about Will.  Over this week I will send more information about ways to help the cause, in the meantime you can check out the United Mitochondrial Disease Foundation's website at umdf.org.
 
Abby and Will at the Energy for Life walk in Houston.
 
Part of why Sheila's email hit me hard was the fact that one day, we're going to have to explain Will's situation to Will. How on earth am I going to do that? How am I going to explain it to his cousin Carson, his "best bud" as they call each other. I can barely deal with this in my own head. It's enough to make my head spin, tears fall and my stomach turn.
 
Then I realized, by damn, I hope I get to explain it to him one day. That means he will be old enough to understand, have the cognitive ability to understand and me and Neil to help him get through it. I hope I have the time to have more kids and get to explain it to them and for Will and his brother or sister (or both) to be there for each other.
 
I can't see Will past the age of five. That's just two short years away. I hope that I get him for a lot longer than that. I hope that he will be able to enjoy the brother or sister that I should be pregnant with, but that I'm not. I hope for so many things, but it's people like Sara and Sheila and her family that give me hope that one day enough people will know about mito and one day there will be a cure for kids like Will.
 
 
 
 
 

Thursday, September 13, 2012

EPI-743 now Orphan Drug!

EMA Grants Orphan Designation to Edison Pharmaceuticals for EPI-743 for Treatment of Leigh Syndrome

Clinical development of EPI-743 underway in Europe & the United States Mountain View, California; September 12, 2012. Edison Pharmaceuticals announced today that the Committee for Orphan Medicinal Products (COMP), European Medicines Agency, has granted orphan designation to EPI-743 for the treatment of Leigh syndrome.

In their decision the committee noted, "… the COMP delivered for a first time ever a positive opinion on orphan designation for the treatment for Leigh syndrome, for which no authorized treatments exist in the EU. This syndrome is a very rare and severe disease caused by mutations in mitochondrial respiratory enzymes, leading mainly to neurological deficits and a poor survival for these patients."

Under Expanded Access in the United States, Edison has studied EPI-743 in 80 subjects with mitochondrial disease. Of those subjects treated in the Expanded Access program, 23 had been diagnosed with Leigh syndrome. Favorable data obtained from the treatment of these children, as well as those treated in Europe under both compassionate use and a phase 2A study, formed the basis of the company’s COMP orphan designation application.

Results of a recently completed phase 2A study entitled "Prospective Open Label Study of EPI-743 in Children with Leigh Syndrome (Subacute Necrotizing Encephalomyelopathy)" will be announced soon.
About Edison Pharmaceuticals Edison Pharmaceuticals is a specialty pharmaceutical company dedicated to developing treatments for children with orphan mitochondrial diseases. Contact Information Edison Pharmaceuticals, Inc.
350 North Bernardo Avenue
Mountain View, CA 94043
info@edisonpharma.com
edisonpharma.com
http://edisonpharma.com/PressReleases/120911_EMA%20Grants%20Orphan%20Designation.pdf

Getting one step closer to making this drug available for all who suffer from Leigh's. It's a slow moving ship and I fear it won't get to market in time for many Mito friends. I thank God every day that we are able to be part of this drug trial. There are people like Dr. Gregg Enns who work tirelessly to help push research and clinical trials; he and others like him arereal world heros in my book.

You can help support him and others who are turning research and theory into meaningful and positive clinical trials by supporting the United Mitochondrial Foundation, www.umdf.org. They help fund doctors and researchers like Dr. Enns in the hopes of one day finding a cure.

Here is a link to UMDF's funded projects list: http://www.umdf.org/site/c.8qKOJ0MvF7LUG/b.7959777/k.A1C2/Funded_Projects.htm


My little super star!

Another option you could link / post on Facebook!

 
Nicole Schaper

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Mito Awareness Week

Have you missed me? Well, I'm going to be back in full force in the coming weeks to help shed some light on an ugly disease, I hope you'll join me for Mito Awareness week, Sept. 16 - 22.



If you'd like to support us next week for Mito Awareness week, please consider changing your Facebook profile photo to help promote awareness. Above is an option if you so choose.



After Will was diagnosed with Leigh’s on July 5, 2011, he kind of got obsessed with reading this one particular book, “The Rain Came Down” and wanted to read it every night. It starts out with chaos in a house because of the rain coming down – the dad yelling at the dog and waking up the baby; then it goes on to a truck driver trying to deliver tomatoes, grocery person knocking over his fruit stand, a little boy chasing a paper boat in the gutter and splashing a little girl and so on.


And then magically, the rain stops. All the “Honking, yelling, bickering and barking stopped and the air smelled fresh and sweet” (I have most of the book memorized now as he still loves it). At the end of the book, the family it started out with concludes the book by “having a picnic in the backyard while the baby, chicken, dog and cat slept in the warm afternoon sun” – After he was diagnosed I could barely get through that last page without shedding a few tears. I still get choked up.
I just want that so badly. I just want to be content and add more babies to that page. I could do without the chicken, but if that meant having that idyllic ending I’ll take it. I just want to worry about whether or not my kids will play soccer or basketball; make As or Fs; fall in love… I just want that with my whole being and it just feels like it’s not going to happen.
Random addition to the post, but it's what I'm feeling today. We read that book last night together and yesterday was a really rough day for a lot of reasons. Additionally, please say a special prayer for another family who I know just experienced their "July 5" as they received a Leigh's diagnosis for their sweet baby. 

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Mito Awareness Week - Sept. 16 - 22


In just a few short weeks the entire nation will be recognizing and honoring  Mitochondrial Disease Awareness Week.  For those of us in Texas we are trying to give back and pay it forward all at the same time!

California Pizza Kitchen has graciously agreed to donate to MitoAction 20% of the revenue for those who dine-in, take out, cater or curbside pickup (and bring this flyer) the week of  September 16-22 , 2012 FOR THE ENTIRE DAY and AT ALL TEXAS CPK LOCATIONS.

We will likely head over to the San Felipe at the Loop / in the Galleria location on Wed., Sept. 19 for dinner if anyone wants to join.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Unbelievable Labor Day weekend

What an unbelievable weekend…. I just couldn't not post this.  
Friday night – Neil started feeling funky. He and Will went to bed early and during the night he had the cold sweats, achey and headache woke up with a 102 temp.
Saturday morning – Will and I evacuate the house and head to my parents in the hopes that Will doesn’t get sick, even though Will and Neil had spent some serious time cuddling in bed.
Saturday afternoon – spent on the phone trying to get Will a prescription for TamiFlu. Neil goes to the ol’ Doc in a Box and is diagnosed with walking pneumonia. Gets a zpack. All that calling around for TamiFlu was pointless, but I’m glad we did it.
Sunday - Neil is still sick, temps ranging from 99.9 – 102.
Monday morning – Neil still has a temp.  Then, I start throwing up among other things. Then my dad starts, then we hear from my sister that my nephew starts, then my sister starts.
I’m so pathetically sick that I can’t even drive us home Monday night. Plus, we were worried that Will was eventually going to get the stomach bug or Neil’s walking pneumonia so we called in for reinforcements from San Antonio. Neil’s parents drove from SA to The Woodlands in Labor Day weekend traffic, picked me and Will up, got us home and all of us in bed. Barf bags are kept handy.
Tuesday – Neil wakes up temp free; I’m not barfing anymore, but still am really weak. My mother in law gets Will fed, dressed and to school meanwhile Neil and I are slowly starting to feel better. I keep down some soup and crackers.
We’re still on the mend over here, but by some weird twist of luck/fate Will hasn’t gotten sick. I am just so in shock. Knock on wood. He has some green snot, but that I can handle. What Neil and I have had is just not good.
So, please pray that our little bud manages to keep the germs away. I don’t know what we would have done without our parents these past few days.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

A Mother and Grandmother's Perspective

A while ago I had emailed out some updates / misc stuff to our parents and siblings about a variety of things and one of those was an invite to author a blog post. This blog has been an outlet, sounding board and healer for me and I was trying to share the good feeling....

So, from my mom, who I couldn't imagine not having in my daily life. She asked us to edit or make sure we were "ok" with her blog. We read it and both agreed that there are no edits to someone's feelings. They are what they are and it humbled both of us. We love you.

A Mother’s and Grandmother’s Perspective

I have the special honor to write a guest blog on my perspective of the Martin family’s journey.  I am writing as Lori’s mom and as Will’s grandmother. 

Bringing Lori home from hospital.  June 1980

No matter how old your child is, they will always be your baby.  When they are hurting you are hurting.  When they were kids, the pain could be kissed away.  However, in this situation, there is no magical band aid (or sticker) to cure this hell.



Lori – one year old


Lori – two years old

For 31 years I felt like I had done a pretty good job protecting my baby but on July 5th, 2011, all that changed.  That day will always be embedded in my mind and heart.  It is not every day that your daughter comes in and tells you that her son, my grandson, has a terminal disease and is going to die early, very early.  What does early mean?  Have you ever thought about what you would do or how you would react?  In my whole being there was nothing I could draw upon to help me prepare for this unspeakable moment.  There was nothing I could say or do to take away the pain and pure anguish.  We just stood there, held each other, and cried.  The world outside stopped and nothing else mattered.  I knew enough to know that this was going to be life changing.  [As time went on, we learned the ripple effects of this disease.]


After a year of grueling tests followed by a horrific diagnosis, the journey continues…  I think of it as walking through the swamps and then just like that, you fall into quicksand.  Lori and Neil’s quicksand can pull them in with no forewarning.  Pow!  Fever!  Get to the hospital in a frantic rush!  Keep the bags packed and always have Will’s medical papers with you.  Thanks to the “fast pass”, Will goes right back – no waiting in the ER.  IV’s, blood work, urine samples…All of this should be pretty scary to little Will but for the most part he knows what’s to come and can handle it pretty well.  He is too busy charming the staff and making friends.  On the other hand, Lori and Neil are scared and worried, rightly so.  They are in the quicksand and are hoping that there is no permanent damage or new brain lesions. A tiny childhood virus can accelerate this degenerative disease and have damaging effects on Will.

This may sound dramatic, but this is Lori’s and Neil’s real life; the way they live every day.  I can’t begin to imagine, as a mother, living a “normal” life knowing that your dreams for your child have been robbed and that the life you expected has been shattered. 

From Will’s diagnosis, we learned that Leigh’s is a genetic disorder that is passed through the maternal line.  After genetic counseling and tests it was confirmed that not only is Lori a carrier for this disease, but me and my two other daughters are as well.  Furthermore, it was determined that this wretched and godforsaken disease began with me.  I have realized that I will never accept this nor will I be able to come to terms with this reality.  In my head I can rationalize and say that I was a victim too and that it was not my fault.  But regardless, my heart has no logic and it continues to break for my family. 
Lori 6, Julie 4, Lisa 2



Together at Will’s birth – April 24, 2009

Before this information came to light, I was blessed with two grandchildren, Carson and Cameron, from my daughter, Julie.  All three of them are heteroplasmic which means they are carriers of the mutation and have a greater chance to develop a mitochondrial disorder later in life.  Lori and Lisa are also heteroplasmic.  Since this mutation is maternally inherited and would be passed to future offspring, Lori and Lisa have been advised not to have biological children.  As their mother, it is hard to watch them struggle with life long decisions.  Again, again, and again, my heart breaks for my daughters because their dreams and their futures will not be what they had imagined.  As you can see, this disease is far reaching.

Together with my three beautiful daughters – September 2008

I will always be a mother first but being a grandmother of three boys has given me so much joy.  I have the privilege of seeing my grandchildren almost daily and in an environment where I can watch them learn, play, and grow.  One of my guilty pleasures at work is gazing at them from afar when they don’t even know it.  I like to watch the way their hands work.  I like to watch how they get pleasure out of what they are doing.  I like to watch their accomplishments.  I like to see their art work.  I like to watch them eating their lunch.  I like to watch them interact with other children.  I like to watch them lick a popsicle during water play.  I like to look up from my work and there they are standing with a smile, waiting for a hug.  I like when they ask to sit in their “special spot” in my office.  I could go on and on but I think I have made my point.  I love being with them!

My three handsome grandsons – Will, Carson, Cameron

Through all of the emotional and physical turmoil in my life, these three little guys heal me in a way that is immeasurable.  Knowing we share an unconditional love that is given so freely makes my heart sing.  They can turn any frown upside down.  They can turn a difficult day into an “I can get through it kind of day”.  They cast a spell on me with their magic without even being aware of how much it means to me.  They truly, without a doubt, make me a better person. 


Me with my three favorite boys

One of my favorite sounds is Will yelling, “DeDe, I want to give you a hug,” while he is charging towards me.  There is nothing better than one of his famous bear hugs.  If you haven’t had one, you are missing out.  You can truly feel the love coming through his arms (if he doesn’t choke you). 



One of my favorite pictures of Will



One cool guy


One cool gal



Our first Halloween

Anyone that has met Will knows that there is something special about him.  It’s hard to express in words but it’s something you can feel when you are around him.  He draws people to him in a way that I have never seen before.  Despite the challenges he faces he is showing us how we should be living our lives. 



Another favorite – smiling with his whole heart


Our first Christmas



You can’t help but love the chubby cheeks

When something of this magnitude happens and shakes you to the core of your being you have to find a way to keep going.  A story about an angel helps me express my feelings and make sense of this unexplainable mess.  In this story, a child angel requested to be sent to earth with the mission of unlocking the goodness of love in people’s hearts.  I believe Will is here for that purpose and that goodness and love are the offspring of his suffering.  He has brought countless people together and has taught us what is truly important in life.  I believe Will is a miracle given to us and knowing that gives me a tiny piece of comfort.  I also believe that everyone in Will’s life will discover a precious gift that he has given to them. 

The incredible family

To continue with the story the little angel is given two special people to care for him on his journey but will suffer with him immensely.  Lori and Neil has been the icon of what any “special needs” child requires.  They have been relentless and have dedicated their entire life to Will.  Every breath and thought has centered on Will and what is best for him.  Their daily scarifies and their unconditional love makes my heart swell with pride.  They have given him the love, security and confidence to face this fight with all that he has.  They have been unwavering advocates and warriors to ensure that he has every opportunity for a better life.  Lori has told me that she has no regrets in the path they have chosen and the care that they have provided.  What more could a mother and grandmother ask for. 



Mr. and Mrs. Martin – July 15, 2006


My hero - College photo

I am 60 years old and my 32 year old daughter has become my hero.  I am in awe of how she lives her life.  She has become a daily inspiration to me.  Even though she possesses these super human qualities she still can fall apart like any human being.  But she has an inner strength that I wish I had.  Similar to Will, she has shown us what really matters in this world and how to love with your whole being.  One of the greatest gifts I have is to call her my daughter.  Lori, I am so proud of you and you will always be my “angel baby”.  Neil, I know I’m your mother-in-law but you mean as much to me as my own daughter.  Please know that I am here for you always.  I admire your dedication to your family and the courage you have shown to make this journey.  Thank you from the depths of my soul for always being there for my daughter.  It gives me peace knowing that you have each other.   


Two courageous warriors

Throughout this journey, I have been humbled by the outpouring of love that has been bestowed on our family.  Your presence is always felt.  We know you are out there.  Your love and support are what get us through the swamp and out of the quicksand.  Knowing that so many people are out there supporting my daughter, son-in-law and grandson gives me great comfort.  From the bottom of my heart, thank you.  Those two words do not begin to express my gratitude but know that I am thankful for each and every one of you.

Will has intertwined himself into so many people’s lives that we all have our own unique and special perspective.  For me personally, I am trying to relish his life and memorize everything that makes him who he is.  I am not the same mother or grandmother I was before July 5, 2011.I have learned many lessons but the biggest is to cherish every moment.  The greatest gift I can give myself and in turn give to Will is to celebrate the miraculous person he is. 


I love you Will.  You will always be my handsome grandson.

Monday, August 20, 2012

Update on Life

I’ve been a bad updater lately, but will try to rectify that for my own personal happiness.
So let’s review things that typically get Will a little off – snot, messed up GI and lack of sleep. Let’s review the past two weeks – snot, constipation and he has quit napping at school.
But, just as quickly as it came, the stuttering seems to have gone or decreased for now. His ataxia has decreased and even his PT Ms. Lauri commented on how much stronger he seemed last week.
SAY WHAT? My Mito Friend? I simply do not understand. All the signals I would have thought would have triggered a hospital visit are now coming with improvements. I give up.
Ok, so I’ll never give up on Will, but it just goes to show you just never know what to expect with this guy.
So, other than obsessively monitoring for stuttering and doing PT, we’ve been doing a lot of birthday party action (need to download and post pics), trying to stay out of the heat (darn near impossible) and getting the house cleaned out.
I’m on a purging mission – Will has been my “big helper” and actually has been doing a great job. He loves to help, so it works out well. Cleaned out closets, cabinets – even the junk drawer.
This week is Will’s last week in Ms. Maria’s class. I haven’t cried yet. He’s moving up to Ms. Monica’s class where he will be a self-proclaimed “big kid” now. I can’t tell you how much I have needed the comfort and care that he’s received in Ms. Maria’s class – Ms. Joanna, Ms. Andrea, Ms. Peala, Ms. Cindy and Ms. Veronica. I know they love him like he’s their own and I just don’t know what I’d do without that.
I know that when he moves up, his new teachers, who already love and know him – will continue with that same level of comfort and care. But he’s a big kid now! When did that happen?
Some funny Will stories…
TMI, but hilarious Will story. Will has some of the stinkiest tootie gas I have ever experienced in my life. I mean, gag me. He will just stand there and toot, smile at me and laugh. So sometimes he has a tootie in bed and Neil has taught him how to “air it out” from under the covers. Well tonight we were lying in bed reading and all of a sudden, Will is shaking the covers out and out comes the absolutely most disgusting smell. He just looked at us and smiled. We started laughing hysterically.
“Are you Kidding Me?” – apparently I must say this a lot. Will says to me the other day, “Are you kidding me Neil?” – I said what are you talking about? Dad’s not here. He fell apart laughing and yelling “are you kidding me?”
I’ll have some more funny stories soon because I am determined to download some photos.
Hope everyone is having a great week!  

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Forest VS Trees

The forest and the trees....

Many days I find myself stuck between the trees in life. I can only see the bark falling off the trees or uneven pathways in the dirt.

I was reminded this week that the forest is still beautiful and thriving. There are so many huge decisions in our future, both short term and long term and if I can stop worrying about each tree and how it will grow or fall I might just enjoy myself.

Happy Thursday and enjoy the weekend.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Shop for a Cause

Support the UMDF by Shopping at Macy's on August 25!

Help the United Mitochondrial Disease Foundation by participating in Macy's Shop For A Cause event on Saturday, August 25, 2012.

How It Works:
Log on to www.umdf.org/macysshopforacause and purchase a $5.00 shopping pass.

Shop For A Cause gives you the opportunity to help the UMDF by purchasing a $5 shopping pass for exclusive savings and special offers in every Macy’s store on Saturday, August 25th.  Receive 25% off on regular, sale & clearance items, including home. Save 10% on electrics/electronics, furniture, mattresses, and rugs/floor coverings.

As a participating charity we keep 100% of the proceeds from the sale of each pass. Plus, you can enter to win a $500 Macy’s Gift Card!
*This exclusive shopping pass can be redeemed at any Macy's on Saturday, August 25th.  By purchasing a shopping pass to the event you can support UMDF while enjoying a day of spectacular discounts, entertainment and special events. For more information please contact events@umdf.org