Peace be with you
Rest in peace
Definition of PEACE according to the dictionary:
1: a state of tranquility or quiet: as a : freedom from civil disturbance b : a state of security or order within a community provided for by law or custom <a breach of the peace>
2: freedom from disquieting or oppressive thoughts or emotions
3: harmony in personal relations
4a : a state or period of mutual concord between governments b : a pact or agreement to end hostilities between those who have been at war or in a state of enmity
5—used interjectionally to ask for silence or calm or as a greeting or farewell
— at peace : in a state of concord or tranquility
I was able to make it to church tonight for Ash Wed. services and had a few minutes to further reflect on this word and I realized that peace is actually what I desire most for me, Will and Neil - and of course all our loved ones.
Happy, joy, sad, bitter, angry, helpless, overwhelmed, worried, anxious, fear, grief - all of these things come and go literally every day and are easy to achieve. But peace - what is that? Is it a fleeting moment in time, do I have peaceful moments?
How can I be AT PEACE in my soul? That's what I want and think I need to strive for - for all of us. I want to find a way to be at peace with our new normal, being ok that every time I hug and kiss my baby goodnight that it's bittersweet. I want Will to have a peaceful passing. A peaceful home - no matter if where we sleep that night is at a hospital or our house.
I just want to be "ok" with our life and find a way to just be at peace with it. I think I'm kind of getting there, I don't know if I ever really will, or even if I should. I want to have and will have laughter in our lives, joy and even sadness. I've realized our life is even more full because of this pain.
Peace is probably one of the most elusive state's of being. Best of luck to all of us.