So, welcome 2013. What do you have in store for us? Might I make two requests?
- A cure
- A baby (or two).
That is all. I don't have high expectations of 2013 do I? (insert maniacal laugh)
The past two months, I've been focusing a lot of me. Selfish sounding yes, but necessary. I feel like we're at a place with Will that's steady. We've fallen into a new crazy world and it's taken me a long time to sort it out but, (knock on wood) I think we might have figured some of it out. However, along the way, I am pretty sure I lost a little bit of me.
I started back up on an anti-depressant after we found out we weren't pregnant in November. It had to happen and it's changed my attitude for the better. I don't get as overwhelmed, sad or anxious - though I still have my days. I bought new skin care products, got a facial, some new make up. I've been trying to grow my very chewed up fingernails out and have even succeeded in getting a manicure twice. Neil and I finally got serious about getting all this weight off and it's working.
I now know what it feels like to get to a "new normal" and am working to make it work for our family. I think my job change significantly helped ease a lot of the craziness.
2013, we're starting strong. Please don't fail me.
I'm a big fan of Dear Abby and my mom mentioned her Jan. 1 column was exceptional. I couldn't agree more...
The original credo of Al-Anon:
JUST FOR TODAY, I will live through this day only. I will not brood about yesterday or obsess about tomorrow. I will not set far-reaching goals or try to overcome all of my problems at once.I know that I can do something for 24 hours that would overwhelm me if I had to keep it up for a lifetime.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will be happy. I will not dwell on thoughts that depress me. If my mind fills with clouds, I will chase them away and fill it with sunshine.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will accept what is. I will face reality. I will correct those things that I can correct and accept those I cannot.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will improve my mind. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration. I will not be a mental loafer.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will make a conscious effort to be agreeable. I will be kind and courteous to those who cross my path, and I'll not speak ill of others. I will improve my appearance, speak softly, and not interrupt when someone else is talking. Just for today, I will refrain from improving anybody but myself.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will do something positive to improve my health. If I'm a smoker, I'll quit. If I'm overweight, I will eat healthfully -- if only for today. And not only that, I will get off the couch and take a brisk walk, even if it's only around the block.
JUST FOR TODAY, I will gather the courage to do what is right and take the responsibility for my own actions.
And if I forget all that, I have my little buddy and his flashlight to guide be back to what is pure.