Writers block is in full effect for this blog, thankfully I suppose that means things are calm. So I'm going to do what I do at work, just start filling the screen and then edit it down and hope I didn't waste my time. Only on the blog I promised myself I wouldn't edit my thoughts, just spelling and some grammar. :-) Good luck reading this posting!
It's almost been 4 months since we found out. I'm sure people are sick of hearing me be sad, upset or feel like it's a never ending saga that is now our life. I'm getting tired of it myself. What to do though? On another blog I frequent someone posted this poem called "Normal" - I'm not ready to post it here. It's mostly a poem about the new normal is like after your child dies. A lot of it is still relevant to just a special needs child, just hit me in the gut and made me realize that our new normal really is just different and never going away. Our friends and family will either accept it, leave us or ignore it and never really want to know or care to understand, which the last one is kind of like leaving us. Eye opening really.
We brought Will up to meet Dr. Mark (our mental therapist) this morning. It was nice to connect the two for me visually. Will pretty much didn't leave my lap, but when it was time to go he gave Dr. Mark two of the best hugs I've ever seen. It made my heart heavy but happy.
There are two new people I now run "life choices" by - Dr. Koenig (mito dr.) and Dr. Mark.
Neil is going to spend the weekend in Austin with his brother so Will and I are heading to my parents house for a weekend of fun, pumpkins and likely lot's of photos. I'll be posting some fun ones.
I still haven't finalized the Halloween costume..... I am too competitive with myself. That mustache from last Halloween was really unbeatable. I feel like something generic like a devil or cowboy is just so blah haha.
Rambling thoughts from the Martin house tonight.